I have been pondering the manner and depth of my relationships on earth and my relationship with the heavens. My mind thinks a great deal many things in a day. Rarely are they ever uttered to another. I keep my thinkings mostly to myself for a few reasons. One, I do not know if my thinking is always correct. Two, I do not wish for it to be trampled on. I wonder if in doing so much keeping I am missing out on deeper, richer relationships. Then again, as I think back and I have never been the talking kind. I do not enjoy bantering conversation. I do not enjoy forcing my opinion onto others. I feel it is better to listen and learn from others and only give opinion when it is wanted. I feel like this is one way in which to walk peaceably with the children of men. To live in such a way is evidence of the hope by which is sufficient to enter into the rest of the Lord. I am a peaceable follower of Christ. The trick is remembering this in those moments when Satan has tricked me into believing that anger is the resolving solution to a short lived muddle moment.
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Tuesday, June 14, 2011
I love this picture, and as you can see, I love ladybugs. This love is newfound thanks to my two year olds fascination with them. The pictures on my last post was from our yard and I took them. This one is swiped from the web. I thought it was fitting for where my thoughts have taken me and the title of todays post. Poor ladybug, now he has to turn around and find a new path.
I'm reading on the Book of Mormon about the prophet Lehi and his family. Living in Jerusalem, Lehi preaches repentance to the people. The people are angry with Lehi. The Lord instructs Lehi to gather provisions and depart with his family. Lehi obeys, escaping any harm that may have come. The lesson-protection comes through obedience.
A journey begins for Lehi and his family. How did they know where to go? Like the ladybug in the picture, if they left life and their journey up to happenstance, where would they end up? Lehi sought in prayer the way for them to go. There are lessons all through out the scriptures if I look for them and how they can apply to me individually.
Lehi had sons, one of which was named Nephi. Having been uprooted from their home, some of Lehi's sons were not too happy about this new journey. Nephi decided to find out for himself if the things his father learned from the Lord are true. He prayed in faith and the the good Lord listened and answered his prayer. Nephi could continue the journey with faith, knowing it was the right path and that he would arrive at the correct destination.
How often do I leave my life to happenstance? Do I wake and take responsibility for the day? Do I really seek to follow what the Lord would have me do that day?
Children are gathering on my bed so I guess this is the end of my post for today.
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Wednesday, June 1, 2011
The definition of the word believe: to have confidence in the truth, the existence, or the reliability of something, although without absolute proof that one is right in doing so.
It is my belief that we come to this earth with a believing heart. Then through life's experiences a hardening takes place. For some this happens early in life. For others, including myself, it happens a little at a time as life fills up with stuff. Stuff that may include unnecessary things as well as good and right things such as children.
Since this is my journey, I'll tell of that which applies to me in hopes it applies to others as well.
As a young mother my heart was very believing. It was at this time that my testimony of the gospel was solidified. I chose to stay home when my first was born. She was such a great baby. She followed a sleeping and eating schedule to a "t". This left me free time which I could spend studying the scriptures and reading words from the leaders of my church. What a reservoir of faith and knowledge I filled up! Looking back, this devotion to study is what kept my heart open, soft, and receptive to God and His Son, Jesus Christ.
Time passed and 3 more children joined our family. Free time diminished and energy depleted. I tapped into that spiritual reservoir time and time again. How it saved me!
Then, I think it ran out. It seems that I feel the need to brace my heart more often so it can withstand any blows that come my way. Especially with children growing and gaining their own opinions and desires of what they should do. I say to my husband often, "it used to be easier when they were tiny". Yes it was a lot of physical work to care for them, but it seemed less emotionally and mentally taxing. He does not share my opinion. His confidence in parenting older children is much higher than mine. But then again, perhaps he has a better reserve of faith to tap into right now. He is always constant in his prayer and scripture study. Well, it seems I needed to tap once again into my faith reservoir but it was depleted. So, here I am. Filling it back up and trying to understand with my heart and mind as I do so.
Today's scripture that touched my heart is found in Romans chapter 5 verse 1: "...being justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ."
Getting to the point, because the kids are calling me, who in this world does not seek peace? Especially peace with God, the father of our spirits. It seems to me that this scripture teaches that my part is faith. Faith in the Lord Jesus Christ and faith in all that he has done for me. Through Jesus, having such faith will enrich my relationship with God. When we are at peace with God then I believe we are at peace with ourselves and those around us.
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Sunday, May 29, 2011
Hello! This template seems appropriate for my new blog, the one in which I hope to reach out into this technology world and share my love of the gospel of Jesus Christ. I have not dared enter this world of technology until now. Why? It began with a season change and my Husbands love of the Golf game. How on earth does this relate? I shall tell you, if you decide to read on. I am a simple
woman, girl(I'll never grow up completely). I am a wife and a mother. This is all I do. Recently when asked what are my hobbies, they were few. I began to watch my Husband and his hobby of golf. He loves the game of Golf! Enough to read about it, watch it, and learn new techniques to better his skills. Not only does he appreciate the game itself, but he also embraces the world of golf which means taking in the rules and mannerisms of self control and respect for the beauty of the course and for the other players. Watching him, I began to question: What am I interested in that could compare? I began to think about the activities that bring me the most joy. Mothering tops that list for sure, but what do I do on my own with just me. Actually, who was "me" anymore? Does anyone else out there feel like you've lost yourself and who you really are? Life does that sometimes. I once heard it called "stuck in the middle of the muddle" a good description I think. Sometimes there is so much going on that we lose ourselves in it. So, after thinking for a bit, I realized that studying, and writing about my studies is my hobby. I am a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. I love to study the gospel. I used to spend about an hour a day reading and studying back when I only had one and two children. I loved it! Now I have four children and it seems that I am tired in the morning and at night. This has been my excuse for quite sometime now. Recently I re-watched a General Conference talk(General Conference is where members gather to hear encouragement and direction from leaders of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. These talks are later printed for study and application in a magazine entitled "Ensign" or "Liahona") The talk that I was listening to was given by President Uchtdorf. He spoke of waiting on the road to Damascus for Jesus to appear as He did to Saul. I feel I have been waiting around for my testimony to grow, and my knowledge to increase without any real effort on my part. I don't want to wait around any longer. I begin this blog with a commitment to become and engaged disciple of Christ. I hope to share my experiences here on this blog. I do not do this to be boastful. I only share these things because an Apostle of the Lord has asked me to open my mouth and share. To use technology appropriately as a means of reaching out and touching another life. I do not know who will read this. All I know for certain is that if the Lord wants someone to read it He will lead them to the words written for them. May God grant me the courage to follow through with this endeavor. I close this post with a heart full of love. May this be a means of coming closer to Christ for someone-even if that someone is just me.